Another rant, despite the fact that I myself am peculiarly succeptable to technology.

I'm at one of those points in my life where I am angry, and frustrated. I feel so tired and hopeless with the state of the world. This is so idiotic to feel this way, because I contribute as much as anyone to the stupidity floating around with the rest of the pollution, but I still have this sadness I can't seem to suppress or explain away.

I want life to be more meaningful. That also sounds idiotic coming from a Christian, because we're supposed to have all meaning to life, and we do. Jesus fulfills every bit of longing that we are plagued with if we only reach out to Him and accept the meaning. However, I grow so tired of the complicated, technological, artificial, shallow, short lived, meaningless habits and practices that we go through. I'm sick and tired of my computer, and I'm ready to put it under my bed forever. I'm sick and tired of my cell phone, and I want to throw it out my window and let the snow eat it. I'm sick and tired of my college work, because it isn't teaching me much of anything and I want to grasp learning and use it in my life. I'm sick and tired of all of the tech. I'm sick and tired of the speed of life, of the complicated easiness that has been a poor excuse for replacing simplicity.

I want to be a hobbit in the Shire, or an elf in Rivendell. I really do.

I'm tired of people getting sick because we don't garden anymore, or they just don't get outside enough. I'm tired of living off of caffeine. I'm tired of typing instead of writing. I'm tired of watching instead of reading. I'm tired of listening instead of sitting in silence. I'm tired of things not being simpler.

Don't get me wrong. I understand that simplicity is more than just those things. I also understand that the first step to making this dream of mine come true would be to actually get off of my own computer more, stop talking on the phone so much, take more time to sit in silence, relax, read more classics, light more candles and stop complaining. I understand that this is something more or less easily attained in my own life, if I only set my mind to it, and I honestly do plan on doing better. I guess I just want everyone in my life to just stop the rush, stop the technology dependence, stop the complications, and just breath in and relax. Drink in God and His nature. Drink in life, because there is more to it than just google, wikipedia, the latest app, and so many other things that just make me want to just hole myself up in my room and read a George MacDonald book.

Yes, this is a rant. Yes, I am a pot seeing the splinter in the kettle's black eye. Sometimes, however, I need to write down my feelings in order to truly understand how to deal with them. I think a technology fast may be in order soon.