I Miss, written 5/10

Letters, words, sounds, smells.
Remembering, I remember so well.
Looking back, it's been only months
But so much longer than I've even been alive.

I miss the radar with you upon my screen,
I miss the knowing, and the not knowing,
I miss the way you used to play,
The way you used to prey upon my thoughts like the piano keys.
The mystery I could feel I already understood the ending to.

Frightful now, I live alone,
Surrounded, I'm so lonely, though I have all I need,
It's a space in my heart that I didn't know existed
Until you took the substance and left it empty.

I miss the hope for future plans and dreams,
I miss the songs our souls sang in unison it seems,
I miss the bond, the feel of you beside me in every way,
I miss the love I felt emanate from you every day,
From so many miles away.

But I've found I can live on,
I still love you, but I can move away
From that feel of constant heartache,
I've found I can pray for you
And never see you anymore.

I watched you open,
You said it was from me,
A beautiful soul so long in hiding,
I loved every inch of it.

I miss the way you laughed at me,
Smiled at me, wondered at me,
Loved for me, loved for me.

But I've found I can live on,
I still love you, but I can move away
From that feel of constant heartache,
I've found I can pray for you
And never see you anymore.