Life update

I have neglected my blog shamefully. I miss it. I really do.

I'm not even sure anyone reads it anymore. This is partially due to the fact that I am an unfaithful poster as of late, and partially due to the fact that I am also a boring sort of poster as of late. Ah, well. The things one must do in order to receive a college degree are oft times shameful and disgraceful.

There is, however, some beautiful sort of pleasure in knowing that I may in fact be unread anymore. I am shouting into the proverbial void of cyberspace, and I might say anything at all. No one will ever know... hehehehehe. This makes me feel evil and diabolical.

My life. Ah, my life. What else is there really for me to write about? I have no idea. I mean... I suppose I could write a story about a unicorn or something. I've done that plenty before. But seriously... my life is more interesting right now. And yet there is nothing I can really say on my blog that relates the interesting parts. I think that's why I stopped blogging. It's because everything in my life got to the point of being so deep and so a part of me that I could only post pictures that speak a thousand words, and not words that speak a million emotions.

I feel so deeply full of love sometimes. God has worked miracles of growth in my heart, and I have no idea sometimes when I stop to think about it just how he managed to mature me so fantastically. I'm not saying I'm mature, I'm just saying God has a hold of me and I'm getting better. So much has happened. This past year has kicked me in the rear like nothing in my life has ever done, and I am better for it. It ripped me apart, but somehow God brought me through it restored.

Sometimes I honestly just feel completely obliterated by pain and sadness, and just want to curl into a ball and die. But God always takes hold of me and lets me cry on Him. There is so much love emanating from Him that all I have to do sometimes is just fall into it. Sometimes I forget it's there, but it's always there.

There is so much more I could say, and maybe I will sometime. I'll probably try to post some of my journal entrees from the past few weeks pretty soon. I'm not sure if anyone is listening or not, but... I have things to say that I didn't used to, and maybe someone out there will benefit from hearing them.

Peace out.